Spring Break greatness

Spring Break couldn't have come at a more perfect time for me. A break from school and some time to play was exactly what I needed! The warm weather was also a great bonus!

Started out the weekend with heather coming to visit! I played all day Saturday with her and had a sleep over that night. It was lots of fun to play with her and I always enjoy the short but great time we have together!

Then the rest of the week I got to play with Sydney EVERYDAY!! We started our adventures doing what we do best...talking! Sunday Night we stayed up talking till about 3 in the morning! 

Monday after work I had a great work out thanks to Kendra then of course off to celebrate and watch the season finally of bachelor with Kendra, Lance and Syd. 

The most worthless couple ever- they deserve each other!

Tuesday was a productive day- cleaned my room and my car which were both long over due! Then Sydney and I felt like bringing back our childhood we roller bladed around my neighbor hood (which was SO much fun) went and got ice cream then ended the night watching Pocahontas. It was such a great day!

Wednesday and Thursday were full time work days. Even though I had to work a lot these two days of work only made my spring break better. After a lot of stress of training in the clinic I have not been my happy fun self I usually am. But this week I was back and it felt so nice and made me so happy! :) I had a skype date with Katie! Then both nights after work I enjoyed the company of my dear friend Sydney talking, rollerblading to get dinner at Wendy's and just having a great time together!

Friday I helped my sister out and went and baby sat for her. I got to spend all morning with this little cutie!

To end such a great week we get to celebrate one of my favorite holidays!!!

to be continued....

Trials are blessings in disguise

Where to begin...why not the beginning. Since I was young I have decided that the dental field was what I wanted to go into. In high school I took an internship at Pobanz Orthodontics where I got my braces done at. After I graduated I started working full time at the office and my desire to work in the dental field only grew. I started going to school taking all the classes required for the dental hygiene at Weber. I worked hard and pulled off good grades in all my medical classes. I decided to take summer classes so that I could finish my associates degree early and have an extra point to help me get into the program my second time. Working and going to school since I graduated, it was finally time to apply for the program for my second time. I felt very confident as I had the requirements done to get all the points possible and also a great letter of recommendation from my boss.

I was so excited and immediately nervous when I got the email saying that I got an interview. It felt to good getting one step closer then I did the year before and made me even more confident that I was in, or at least on the right path! I talked to many others to prepare and tried on way to many outfits trying to pick the perfect one. The day was here and my class before I thought I was going to throw up from being so nervous. As I entered the building I had a sense of peace and felt calm as I put my faith in the lord and knew that I had done all that I could and I needed his guidance through this. I made it through the interview- no throwing up or even any jidders. I felt great and even more confident! They said the letters would be sent out the next week so the waiting continued.

March 9, 2012

This week has been a hard week. It started out with a bad day at work both Monday and Tuesday feeling so swamped and being a burden to our office, stressing about money and though I wouldn't admit it or say it out loud the worry of the program. Well I wasn't expecting the letter till Saturday so after seeing a movie with Kendra and Elet getting the text from my mom saying “your letter is here” came as quite a shock and I wasn't prepared at all. It was evident as I broke down in tears to Kendra right there in the parking lot. I was so scared and nervous. For the first time I was scared of the future. I don't really know why reading those words affected me how they did but I was a mess! Kendra said she would come over with lance to be there with me while I opened it, I was very grateful for her support and listening to me and my concerns. I headed to my house and cried the whole way there.. I get to my house and just sat on the couch not even wanting to see the letter. Kendra and Lance got there and my mom said it was time to open it. I felt better and even excited to face the future and get started on my career. I opened the letter and read the words “did NOT make the program” my heart stopped, I was shocked, I couldn't even say anything, a million thoughts running through my head but I couldn't hook them together, I felt like I got slapped in the face. All I could do was shake my head to tell everyone what I was reading and then cry. It cut even deeper when I found out someone else made it their first time applying without even having all the classes done- It didn't make sense at all! None of it, and it hurt! I worked so hard, had everything done and everyone thought I was for sure in...how could this happen? This was my future since I graduated this was my plan and now it's all the sudden altered and there is nothing I can do about it. After crying for a bit Kendra and Lance took me out to lunch to get my mind off of it and it helped but whenever the thought would come to my mind I couldn't help the tears building up behind my eyes. I cried the rest of the night!

After the shock and initial devastation of the situation was over I came to some reasoning and though I couldn't see my future in the fall and what I am supposed to do I know that things happen for a reason. I have faith that things will work out how they need to and this is a trial I need to go through to become stronger and that heavenly father is mindful of me and knows what I need more then I may think I know. I know that there is a plan for me and that there is something else in store for me, i'm just not sure what it is yet. Though when it comes I hope I have enough faith to take it on fully. I am a planner, so when something that big deviates from the plan and I don't know what to plan for next it is hard, but maybe that is one of the things I have to learn. This trial has really made me more appreciative of many things..First the gospel I am so grateful that I have something and someone to trust in who knows the right for me and the entire picture of my life without that I would be lost. The great people in my life who love and support me: Kendra and Lance who were both there to lift me up after and get my mind off of it and Kendra's shoulder to cry on and understanding, Sydney who listened to me cry and cry and not only listened but encouraged me to talk through it and for her amazing example, Katie the little sweetie sent me flowers because she wasn't able to be there, my sister's encouraging words, my dad's concerned eyes and worthiness to hold the priesthood, my very amazing mother who cried with me, was understanding of every emotion I had and is always there for me, loving old neighbors who are like family to me, the girls at work who have been there for me and make me excited to continue my future there especially Jody as she listens to me vent/cry/laugh/be weird or crazy all the time and always has my back, my boss for his advice and help to getting me where I want to be in my future, my bishop for being a caring man and listening and acting on the spirit, and my Jacob who even though he may be miles away still has a way of comforting me and showing his love and support. I know that without these people and many more in my life I don't know where I would be! Though I am still a little confused at what i'm doing in my life at this point I know it will all work out and that I have already grown from this trial.